Actually, I made another little pot. I used to drink coffee all day long every day, which finally had to stop due to the fact that caffeine, in large quantities, turns out to be not so good for you. Otherwise I’d have a 24-cup coffeemaker instead of a 4-cup coffeemaker.

Gave up trying to post every day lately. I still think that it’s a fine idea, but my thoughts have been rather bleak the last few days. I’m sure that part of it is the weather and part of it is hormones, and part of it is my body reminding me that I do suffer from chronic depression that I can’t just wish away. The medication I take helps a lot but is not that strong.

So I didn’t go to see Alice Waters and the Edible Schoolyard inauguration, which I rather regret. I didn’t go to yoga Thursday night and I’m not going this morning. Yesterday I felt like I’d been beat up. My hip is hurting again. I’ve had migraine vision and background headaches. I feel kinda like one of those little roly bugs. Just want to curl up and hide in the darkness when someone comes around. Fortunately, I’m pretty good at hiding it at work, and it’s easy because I have my own office.

Today a friend is coming to my house for the first time to visit, and I hope that it will pick me up some. She’s a mixed-media artist and a farmer and sheep-raiser and we have a lot in common. Her passion right now is wool and needlefelting and so I asked her to bring some work and hang out. Thank god the house has cooled down but it is supposed to rain again. I think that I will lay some cardboard down on the dining room floor and make paper in there.

I didn’t have the root canal, but that’s not to say that it will not still be needed. In a way I wish that I had gone ahead and gotten it over with, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do something that would be expensive and painful when it was not indicated by tests. However, the endodontist said that the nerve is so close to my crown/filling that if the dentist needed to do any more work on it she might require me to get the root canal anyway. So I’m still waiting for the permanent crown, and the plan is to put it on with temporary adhesive “just in case” for up to a year.

In other neurotic fretting, I’ve decided to get a flu shot.

Bleh.

Two things that make me happy: I got my confirmation packet from Teesha for Journalfest this week. It is going to be wonderful, and her information packet is full of beautiful funky art.

And Sandy is taking a week’s vacation the week of Fall Break, which is only two days but still it means that I won’t have class that Monday and we are planning a long weekend in the mountains around Asheville, which is one of my favorite places. I think that I’ve found a cheap motel in Black Mountain that doesn’t have terrible reviews. Sandy and I have stayed in some pretty horrible motels in our day, but we don’t need fancy as long as the room doesn’t smell bad and is clean. Normally we would camp but I don’t think that my body is into it these days.

So I’m really looking forward to this afternoon and tomorrow, and to my October trips. Things really aren’t all that bad – in fact they are pretty doggone good if I can just get my body to believe it.